It’s my first one, coming up in a few months. I’m trying to not think about it because I don’t have a chance of making it. Mom wrote a letter to the parole board. She sent me a copy of the letter. It won’t do any good but she says that it won’t hurt for them to read about me from someone else. She says that maybe it will make them feel better about me the next time. I know she would really want to be here but I’m not sure if they would even let her in for it. But I’d really like to see her again. We didn’t have enough time last time. I know I shouldn’t be complaining ’cause it seemed as if I had a lot of visits, but they all happened in a one month. It was six years since the one visit had before. It would be great if I could have a visit from somebody once a month, but I doubt that would happen. It never has. Wishful thinking. These things are what gives me memories to think about. I play them over and over in my head.
If you want to get parole you have to have an L1 rating and I’m an L3, so they will probably put off my next hearing for 3 years. That sucks for sure. It stands for line class. You go up one number each year, if you’re lucky. They keep you knocked down and then they can keep you locked up. Also, when you are in G5 you can’t take any classes or use the library. I would have to be in G2 for that. But in G4 I can go to the rec room where there’s a TV or they play cards and other stuff. The parole board will want to know what I’ve done to help myself when they know very well that I can’t do anything to help myself because they keep knocking me down to a level where I can’t do anything even if I wanted to, and there is nothing I can do about it. But at least I have the books and magazines that Mom sends so I can keep my mind busy.
At the hearing they’ll want three addresses and three phone numbers so they can call and talk about the area where I would get paroled to, but I don’t really know if they would call anyone. They want to keep us here. They make lots of money off us. Without prisons Texas is broke. There’s over a hundred prisons in Texas alone. This is supposed to be the land of the free but we have more people locked than any other country in the world. Is it because people here are commit more crimes? I don’t think so. A lot of big businesses make money off us, too, with all the things we need to buy and all the things they have to provide us, as little as it is. Prisons are big business. So if they can keep us in here then they all win and we lose.
It’s really cold right now. They have no heat. I’m wearing all the clothing I own. It’s hard to sleep when you’re freezing. No heat in the winter and no AC in the summer. I think it’s another way to torture us. I don’t like this at all. Too cold.
( Sonni’s note: Nov 25, 2014. He is still in ad seg. He gets out one hour to go to another small solitary space not much bigger than his cell so he can walk or pace or exercise by himself. He’s still cold and winter is just getting started. I sent him some money to buy long johns. They have them in the commissary which they’re allowed to go to twice a month. He was right, though, there was no chance of making parole. He said to me once, ” They don’t like to parole Blacks”. He’s seen a lot of men get turned down. Gotta keep those prisons full. But he’s supposed to make G2 by the end of this month. G5 is solitary confinement, or ad seg, a level they kept him at for a total of about 4 years. G4 ( where he is now, lets him go to chow and to spend a limited amount of time in rec. Then it skips to G2. He managed to get ahold of a GED book and he’s studying. He said he wants to be ready to start taking classes when he gets out. He’ll be able to go to the library, too. I asked him what his favorite subject is. He said it was math. Hmmm. . . .there are lots he could do if he has an aptitude for math. I’ve been trying to get my cell phone in the system for “Friends and Family” which is a way for inmates to make calls. Getting his G2 means he will FINALLY be able to make a phone call!!. These are all positive things that will give him a better chance of making parole sometime in the next 8 years. ( I’m not smiling)