I’ve been waiting for your visit. It’s been so long. Over a year and no one else has come to see me. I also feel as though the staff wants me to fail. Somehow they get pleasure out of it. I’ve been waiting and waiting to be let out of adseg. There is no reason why I should be here. It’s been almost three years this time. I don’t have any write-ups. What do they want out of me they aren’t getting? That’s why I know they must enjoy the power they have over us. All I can do is try to hang on.
I’m sorry it took so long to answer. You know I was having some problems. I had problems with medical about them getting me my medications and other problems with an officer putting his hands in my food. These people are a bunch of lying pieces of shit. I know you called up here and questioned them about my medications. I knew you did because they sent not one but two nurses to my cell on different days to talk to me. One was a pill nurse and one was the RN. They let my seizure medication expire and then tried to blame me. They waited four days. That must have been when you called and they knew they couldn’t get away with it anymore. I told every pill nurse who came through here that I didn’t get my medication and they ignored me. Sometimes it was the same nurse I was telling. They did it on purpose. They said they were waiting until they renewed my meds to come talk to me. That was a lie. They came because you called. Why did they let it run out? What were they trying to do?
I tried to make a complaint but the RN said she did not care. Even when I told her a ranking officer witnessed everything she still said she did not care. They had only come to my cell to talk to me to cover their asses.
(Sonni’s note: When I called the main medical unit when I got Jamie’s letter telling me they were skipping his seizure meds, I was told the nurses has marked in his file that he was getting his meds every day, so it was deliberate record falsification. I wanted to call the warden but I know from previous experience that he will always side with his staff and never with the inmate no matter what happened. I knew he had a reclassification coming up anytime trying to get out of adseg and if I tried blame his staff for what happened they might retaliate against him. One time after he got beat by the guards and I talked to the warden, the guards filed 13 sexual harassment charges against him in one month. It doesn’t matter if they were warranted, it was now on his record and that makes it true. It is a crappy system. The guards get away with all the abuse they take out on the inmates. When I called the medical unit about him not getting his meds, the woman was going to contact the nurse on that block and ask her. I said to not do that because they will lie for each other. Her response – “I know”.
I am also only allowed to call the medical unit one time a month. I questioned her. “What if there is an issue, like this, and I need to talk to you?”
“You can’t. They won’t put your call through.”
“Then I need you to call me back and tell me he is okay. Has he had any seizures during this time?” Fortunately he hadn’t. I pulled out all the stops to make her sympathetic enough to call me back when she knew something. She said she would, and she did. She said I was right, he wasn’t getting his meds and they gave bogus excuses. It was deliberate.)
As for the officers here, nothing has changed. They are plain evil. It has gotten worse because when they are hired they train them to treat us like shit. Lately all the officers are 18 – 19 years old. Yep, that young. They ruin them. They teach them to talk crazy to the men. As soon as they do it to the wrong person they find out what happens. I feel sorry for them cause half these dudes here will throw shit and piss on them. Crazy, huh? They have to have some way to get back at them. It’s funny as hell when these guards start talking shit to these dudes and they get hit in the face. If they are going to disrespect the men just because they are inmates they are going to learn what happens.
I still have issues with the guard that keeps messing with my food. That dude is really just crazy. He gets to me at times but I try my best to stay focused. They did not let me out of seg. They set me off for another six months. People in seg get brought up every six months.
In my last meeting with SCC (state classification), there were three people who sat in on it. A ranking officer on the unit, unit chairman of classification and the Huntsville head person of classification. The person from Huntsville has the say-so over all of them. She told me I was doing good but I wasn’t ready yet. I think she is just waiting to see if they can push me into messing up. A person can only deal with so much. If I mess up and get angry they can give me another two years I have to do. That means I can’t get my GED too. But she did say if I stayed out of trouble that next time I see them in March they will let me out.
What I hate so much is having to deal with this officer who is messing with my food. It will probably get worse. I promise you to do my best to stay focused. I’m going to try to get sent to another unit close to home. I don’t want to be in this one anymore. I know there will be a few stumbles in the road as I go. I want to thank you for being there for me and encouraging me. I know things will get harder before they get easy. It always does. So I’m waiting for your visit. It will make it better for awhile.
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