Surviving After-Inside the Forbidden Outside-GoFundMe

 

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I need help to help someone else. For twelve years I was the only one who cared enough to help this man. It has taken a lot for me to ask for it. But I can’t do what I need to do without it. Here is my story:

The video explains who Jamie Cummings is and the book I am writing, Inside the Forbidden Outside, along with recording a music soundtrack of original piano improvisations for each chapter as well as music videos you can find on Youtube. This music aids the journey just as music accompanies a movie. I may be naive but I can see this story as a Hulu or Netflix series as the chapters go through quite a few prisons he was sent to around Texas. The feedback I have gotten from many people who have experienced even part of what I have written has been overwelming. There have been hundreds of comments.

The book and music take the reader inside Jamie’s head to experience the emotional trauma living quite a number of the 13 years inside a solitary cell in adseg, administrative segregation, a fancy word for solitary where he spent most of the years. I am 2/3 through the second draft as I have finetuned the story. You can read chapters at mynameisjame.net .

The music soundtrack makes this book unique. You can stream it at sonniquick.net  The book cover is done and is at the beginning of of every post at the blog that is a chapter. I also opened an online store to make money, but it is new and it takes awhile to cultivate a customer base. It is only for the continental US so far.  You can see it at Watch and Whirl Shop

This story needs to be told. It isn’t unique. It is the story of many people locked up who couldn’t afford an attorney. I wanted this to be complete before he got out, but he was unexpectedly paroled 2 weeks ago and had to go stay with family who had done little for him through the years. The proceeds from the book will help him be able to start his life. 36 years old with the life experiences of a teenager.

It tells the story of what severe deprivation can do to a human being. It goes through medical crises in prison caused by inadequate medical care and having epilepsy. You can feel the depth of his depression at not being able to see his only child, born after he was incarcerated, and his loneliness waiting for someone to visit who rarely came.

No one would take his son to see him. He was afraid he would hate him because he was locked up. I went to Texas every couple years, but I couldn’t go enough. So we wrote many hundreds of letters, his diary of sorts. As I near completion I have no way to pay a professional editor to look it over.

I can’t let him down. I promised I’d be there – to help him get an education, help guide him, help him find a way to survive. To help write the sequel, have him help with the business end, get him a computer and teach him how to make money online, and learn how to help others. He is the father of my grandson. He is family more than most of my own family. We have been there for each others through letters and they would break your heart.

I am on disability and have been recently fighting cancer – again. The video you saw was made early this year before I started treatment again. I have been unable to get to Texas to see him since 10/17. I have been determined to finish the book, but I have read too many self-edited books to take a chance with its success because I couldn’t see something wrong.

A couple months ago I went online to the TDCJ website – Texas Department of Criminal Justice – and found out he was approved for parole. They hadn’t even told him. 2 weeks ago he walked out the doors, with an ankle monitor. There was no one there to meet him. I had known no one would be there for him. I wanted so much to be there but it happened so fast I couldn’t. He was parole to the outside without any preparation. He made his way by bus to his brother’s house who had only visited him once in ten years.

The money I want to raise isn’t for me. I have tried to do this on my own.  A friend recommended I try this site to raise the money.  I want to go to Texas to go over the manuscript with him. He needs a laptop to work with me as I write the last chapters before editing. I have 70,000 words. I estimate it will end at 95,000 words. Writing through the years I am at 2012. It ends at 2016. The sequel picks up from there and goes through re-entry and all of its issues.

Thank you for any help you can give. I make this promise. The names of every single person who helps will be listed in the book. With any donation of $15 I will send you a free ebook and music when it is published and with $25 or more I will send you a signed copy of the book and downloadable copy of the album. I will give anyone who asks, a record of how the money was spent.

 

Today We Need Strong Words Against the Trump Regime

 

Protest against Trump
Hundreds of thousands march down Pennsylvania Avenue during the Women’s March. REUTERS/Bryan Woolston

This is what America has become – deporting prominent people who work for the freedoms on which this country has prided itself for more than two centuries.We allowed ourselves the many illusions of a democracy the Republican Gestapo has actively worked to blatantly destroy to advance the holdings of the wealthy on the premise that the average person’s life has less value. 

My writing is almost always about some aspect of our criminal justice system. But what circumstances are former inmates walking into on the day they are released and want to build new lives. The America they knew and the new America they will see can’t co- exist. If the Trump regime has decided which citizens deserve freedom and liberty, I can assure you they won’t be looking at former inmates as the type of citizens they will feel are deserving of “their” help. They will want them back in prison where they think they belong. Prison corporations already try to keep from helping prisoners with health care, decent food and education because they think of the cost as something coming out of their pickets. After all, they are just criminals, right? And immigrants are rapists and murderers and gang members according to Trump’s SOTU.

Steve Prator, Louisiana’s sheriff recently said the prisons should not parole the “good ones” because they could get a lot more free labor out of them.  I suppose inmates should be used for their worth and then discarded?

If you want to be a good Republican today here is partial list of what you need to support. Feel free to write and tell me what I missed.

They have taken pride in:
1. Racism
2. Discrimination of non- whites, non heterosexuals
3. Cutting help for disabled, elderly and the poor
4. Unequal education for all children and support fir dissolving the line separating church and state because they believe their religious beliefs should be forced on everyone.
5. Gutting consumer protections
6. Gutting environmental protections
7. Taking from the poor to give more to the rich
8. Supporting fossil fuel energy and attempting to halt renewable energy growth
9. Wanting to line all our coastline with drilling rigs until this earth isn’t habitable – as we continue to invade other countries for their resources, too, because they aren’t strong enough to stop us.

10. Arresting people who aren’t loyal to them as they pretend it is Trump who leads them.
11. Wanting to destroy our right to free speech
12. Increased sentencing for non violent crimes and for Cannibis, pretending it’s as lethal and addicting as opiates but is really to keep prisons full in repayment of campaign funding by prison corporations.
13. Destroying the internet and controlling what you learn.

This list goes on and on. Registered Republicans approve of the items on this list. They support the destruction of democracy. But they can’t have their cake and eat it, too, but they think they can. Sorry, ignorance is not bliss.

I had hoped I would never read news about my country like I read now on a daily basis. This Gestapo type behavior of whisking people away, destroys their families, taking them away from their wives, children and communities where they have often lived for decades. Good people. Family people. Hard working people. Innovative people. People who contribute to our country and fought for our country. They are being targeted to get them away from “good, deserving citizens.” Trump’s government thinks these people, who have fought against discrimination, must be deported because they are dangerous. It is freedom and knowledge that is dangerous to Trump’s America.

This country was built 100% by immigrants after we destroyed its inhabitants, took away their land and didn’t honor our treaties. To this day we whittle away what little bit lasts because the government says they need it more. We made the indigenous people out to be the bad people we needed to overthrow. Now Trump has equated the word immigrant with the word criminal. But it was us who were the criminals. We were the murderers. We were the theives who took what wasn’t ours. Now Trump says : Immigrant = bad person. Immigrant= not good enough to live here – even if they had lived here for decades and have a wife and family and pays taxes. Immigrant = deportation.

It makes me sick. Trump’s America. I spit it out like spoiled food that sits rotting in my mouth. I’d rather starve than give an inch in the hell bee occupies.  Trump declared he is on the side of America’s citizens. He has no remorse for behaving like Hitler deciding what race or what nationality is worth protecting. He also decides which citizens are worth protecting. I am appalled, as everyone who lives here should be.

History books looking back at this time will teach the young about this dark period. It will explain the cause of people’s ignorance. The new generation will be amazed at how easily people fell under control of the political party called Fox News, just like we were amazed that German citizens fell under the spell of Hitler. That couldn’t happen to us. We’re smarter than that we would turn against our neighbors.

Fox News is directing our easily swayed, mentally challenged president (” I am, like, really smart” he says in his valley girl way of speaking about himself).  They tell him who to incarcerate and who to execute while inventing “facts” that don’t exist. Laughingly, smart people don’t have to tell people they are smart. They are smart enough to know that.

This dark time will be taught in school like Hitler is taught today. Children will learn what we did to other non-white countries so we could move in with our corporations and nationalize them for profit. Casualties and deaths will be counted and attributed directly to this disgraceful American President who is causing the collapse of any good we are capable of doing. We can no longer pretend America gives a shit about anyone other than the elite class who would rather see someone dead if it meant it could claw out another dollar for themselves.

With Americans targeting their neighbors and spreading hate like the Germans did, I wake each day with such sadness. As I listen to the madness of the fervent talk coming out of Shawn Humanity’s mouth I wonder if the evil was always there or if his ego and huge paycheck gave him the self importance to spread such viciousness to people caught up in the lies he tells. He has far surpassed Bill O’Reilly in spreading evil non truths to his audiences. They lap it up like a dog in heat. How can the anchors at Fox be so hateful of America. It is frightful.

America is losing its soul. It’s goodness. I used to be proud to be as American – so glad I live here. Now I am ashamed of this pathetic regime that was not elected by the people, although Trump thinks he was and it infuriates him. He won, not because he was the best person for the job, but instead by manipulations of billionaires redrawing district lines and attempting to further control who is white enough to vote. And of course, Russia. That much has been proven. The rich don’t give a damn about the people who live here if it doesn’t further their agenda.

I am ashamed of the people who allow themselves to be manipulated by Trump. I am ashamed that people I know could be so ignorant of the reality of America today – those who feel entitled. Those who pride themselves on remaking ignorance into their reality. Those who think their lives are more valuable than others. Sadly, Trump’s America will hurt them, too.

Where was the outcry from Republican citizens when a Republican politician a couple weeks ago announced they wanted to put a stop to Meals on Wheels and lunches for poor children because THEY WEREN’T WORKING and America couldn’t afford to feed them. Not WORKING? He was proposing they just let them die from hunger? They aren’t good enough or productive enough to live? I’ll bet that will motivate the lazy elderly to go out and get a job at Wal-Mart. Who cares if they can’t.

There are people who think every fetus has the right to live, but don’t expect republicans to do anything help them live. Count my life in this batch. Elderly and disabled people weren’t worth helping? This is America? Where was the outcry for suggesting that? Or perhaps Fox News didn’t report it and people never heard about it. Fox is very selective about what they consider to be the truth worth reporting.

Trump has laid our evil government on the table for all to see. He couldn’t have done this if his black heart wasn’t already there. His first year in office has only laid bare what was already hid – the undeniable beginning of the destruction of our country. If you don’t see that you deserve the consequences you will be blindsided with.

The rest of us will continue to fight for our country. We have kept our eyes open to the agenda of today’s Republican party that in no way resembles the party of my grandfather. It has sunk to lows previously not thought possible. Not America. I cry for my grandchildren and the destruction they are left with long after Trump is dead and buried.

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